Thoughts of october

So, its been more than a month since last time that I wrote...oops, I got kinda busy for a while there. With lab, teaching, marching band and chemical engineering classes, I have been spending every waking minute doing homework or preparing for class. Sometimes I've been so busy that I have to do homework while eating. Teaching is really getting to me; I have one section that is smart and does their homework and gets good grades because they try, but my other section doesn't go to class, doesn't do their work and then complains, even though I give the same lecture to both sections. I have finally got some time to breathe now that most of the lab reports are done, now I just have to do a project for my separations class where I get to calculate the pressure drop through a packed column for varying flow rates. I just want to be done with all the stupid idiocracy that is undergraduate education. They treat us as if we were so much cattle, waiting to be processed in giant 700 member groups, making us take these sort of classes all the way to senior year. I just want to be out, in the world of graduate school where I get to do research on a subject that I am passionate about and where I have help from a professor instead of having to trudge through problems for my engineering class then go to learn about english then do a 20 problem statistics assignment on set theory for engineering stats and then spend 90 minutes being told what to be able to regurgitate on a a test for biochem. I don't just excel, I thrive when I have a goal, something that I am aiming towards with my learning, but when I am forced to go off on 3 billion tangents all at once, I tend to ignore all but the things that I think are important. Also when my idiot freshman roommate shows up at 2:00 in the morning, it tends to make the day go a little bit worse as far as being focused. I just want to be done, to be free, out as a petroleum engineer, out as a process, nuclear, plant, whatever engineer. It would also be nice to have a new car :-).

---Two paths diverged in the woods... but I took the one less traveled, and ended up covered in bruises, scratches and blisters, but that...that has made all the difference. I am not some follower, a sheep who is willing to do just what it takes to get a meager wage. I want more, I want to lead, I want to design, I want to engineer, to manage, to build, to react, to make an impact. I want it all.---